{"id":8330,"date":"2020-06-17T14:27:44","date_gmt":"2020-06-17T19:27:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/?p=8330"},"modified":"2020-06-25T10:58:03","modified_gmt":"2020-06-25T15:58:03","slug":"star-wars-binge-week-2020-the-empire-strikes-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/?p=8330","title":{"rendered":"Star Wars Binge Week 2020: The Empire Strikes Back"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

This morning I woke up with the expectation that today would be an incredible day. I watched the Pok\u00e9mon Presents<\/a> video that was posted and became unreasonably hyped about the announcement of New Pok\u00e9mon Snap<\/strong>. Afterwards, I went out for a run around the block, and came back in for a short Ring Fit Adventure<\/strong> session. After showering off, I prepared breakfast and sat down with great excitement to watch The Empire Strikes Back<\/em>, my favourite Star Wars<\/em> movie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Then I picked up my phone and everything went sideways.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(A word of warning, the rest of this post is not about Star Wars<\/em>. Something much more important came up.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n

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I’m not sure what I would have written today, had tragedy not struck. I hadn’t really thought that far ahead. I was just happy that today was The Empire Strikes Back<\/em> day. I did watch the film, and as much as I tried to enjoy it, I was distracted the whole time. I couldn’t focus. I had to pause it and get up and pace around a bit a few times. I was no longer in the right headspace to watch a fun science fiction film. I’m actually probably not even the the right headspace to be writing what I’m about to write, but I need to get it out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

See, this morning I was informed that my ex-wife passed away yesterday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was shocked and deeply saddened when I read the text message. This isn’t the right time or place to get into the details, but for years I have been at least somewhat emotionally prepared for this news. That didn’t lessen the blow. Even though we’ve been apart for five and a half years now, I can’t help but hurt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don’t believe in fate, or destiny, or any sort of higher power that guides our lives, but I can’t help but be dumbstruck by the timing. Last night, as I was falling down the rabbit hole of Star Wars<\/em> nostalgia, I pivoted off for a while to reminisce about the time I spent with her and read old blog posts from the first year of our relationship. It was a bittersweet trip back through better times, how my life had seemed so perfect with her in it. I don’t spend time thinking about her like that very often, or really ever, at least not anymore. So I can’t help but look at the impossible coincidence behind me and wonder if there couldn’t be more to it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

There’s certainly a lot more to be said, but not here. I just feel… completely off right now. As far removed from my current life as she was, she is still a part of my story, and had influenced the person that I am today in more ways than I could ever hope to list. Regardless of everything, I loved her with all my being, and she will always have a place in my heart.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This morning I woke up with the expectation that today would be an incredible day. I watched the Pok\u00e9mon Presents video that was posted and became unreasonably hyped about the announcement of New Pok\u00e9mon Snap. Afterwards, I went out for a run around the block, and came back in for a short Ring Fit Adventure … Continue reading Star Wars Binge Week 2020: The Empire Strikes Back<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8330","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-film","category-irl"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8330","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8330"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8330\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8362,"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8330\/revisions\/8362"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8330"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8330"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torrentialequilibrium.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8330"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}